Fallen Angel-Still Falling by HeavenCent, literature
Literature
Fallen Angel-Still Falling
I've fallen so low where at the deepest depths you still would never be able to reach me
I've crawled inside this shell of mine more times then I can count
Yet your still there behind me,
Even though our ideas don't always become the same, it's still worked out
however your, right there are things wrong,
and I can feel myself falling again
wanting to get back to those old habbits of letting go...
Never letting someone in to love me being unfair and cruel to only to myself
because sometimes I wonder after it all how could someone else love me?
a fallen angel
with a soul thats been clouded for so long
'and if all the strength and cou
when all is quiet the night, the night will cry out in the darkness
it scream its pain for only the lonely to hear...
but only the ones lost in their own pain will know what the night is crying out for
you sit and think back on all that use to be in your life, and what you have become from your lifes experience.
then you see the things that use to be, and the different person you once were
too bad the cat comes back
and the things you let go of come back and test your faith
Do you really have any in the end, does it really matter?
when the things you work so hard to forget and let go of
refuse to let go of you what, is left to do?
A Stolen love
many times I've been brought here
Like the sun sets and the sun rises
I never a go a day, without wanting to be here
its like something i can't fight
through the darkness there was always that light
but whenever I come here I can still feel you near
even though i can't see you, I can still feel you watching me
as the water glides along and the birds still faithfuly sing
the waves cry out your name and they taunt me to join you
I can still hear all the things you use to say
as we stood here and had our first kiss
ohh how the waves betrayed me, stole my love
the silence still frightens me
But I have a smile on my fac
There grows a longing in my soul
The one I've tried too hide for so long
The one that stays with me forever
Never understanding me
Never knowing what power he holds over me
No one knows who I am
Always pretending like they do
Like they want to help me
When nothing they can say can make it all go away
Or make the feelings that's linger in the cold, disappear
Like the waves on the shore
I'm drowning in the sea
The sea of emptiness, the sea of dreams
Lost loves and secrets
The sea swallows me whole
There's a light so far away
I can barely see it anymore
It use to give me hope
Now I know the sea is where I belong
If I was pro
I'm truly lost these days without you
Wondering and pondering how many days we've now spent apart
Been so long since I've touched your heart
I feel like I'm lost within myself
Crazy thoughts keeping me up all night
Wondering horrible questions
About a mistake you made
Wondering what actually happened, and why
Why do I feel
Why do I feel this way
Why cant I just move on
Sometimes I just wish it was the end
So much pain ive gathered up inside
Filling and filling up, its about to over flow
Like a bathtub waiting for its owner to sink
Ive already sunk
And now im awaiting for time
Time to pass time to grieve
Time to move on
Bu
I cant sleep anymore
These pills don't do the trick
The doctor looks at me and says "un huh"
While he writes out another prescription
Another bottle of pills to add to my collection
Another list of things to do
Another thing to worry about
I barely eat anymore
These bruises paint my skin
Mysterious cuz now my skin is falling off
Am I dying? Or am I just dead inside?
Am I crazy for thinking horrible things
Wanting someone to depart is that evil?
Does that make me evil?
What the hell is evil, and what makes someone evil?
Why do my dreams always make me fear for my life
Why does my heart betray me
And why does my head scrutinize
Favourite genre of music: Linkin Park, hinder, stone sour, dmx, mariah carey, Favourite cartoon character: Wolverine, Rogue, and Ariel Personal Quote: "do you what you want to do, your going to do it anyways, why pretend."
Favourite Visual Artist
David My man!
Favourite Movies
silent hill, saw, Identity, Matrix, Final fantasy, dawn of the dead, pitch black
Thats RIGHT I am Engaged now!!!!!!!! Well as long as i can keep the ring, and my baby gets his loan!! I posted a pic of the ring, Were soo happy now. I hope so anyways I am exstatic I didnt think this would happen for another few months but it did. ANd Now were finally pretty MUch Done with da lol. I work all the time now, and will be working even more lately. So ummm Just add me on msn or something because I wont be checking this anymore Sorry guys!!!!
Need money. Cuz i start school Full time in jan. Jsut doing chem now. and trying to sopend as much time as I can with my fiance!!!!!!!!!!!! YAY :P
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Well the last few months have been absoultely hectic for me. I'm sure so many people can relate with either school or jobs, and getting organized.
I finally have a place and lease signed :D And im moving in with one of my best friends.
Im really excited to become a nurse. ANd start my program although its costing a fortune already. And a lot of paper work and deadlines :(
Although I get to spend a whole week with David My boyfriend, and get to make him be my slave for moving Day lol :P So that will be fun :)
Finally got my computer fixed a year and a half later ;) although 240 dollars later about half what i paid for it in
Well, Its my 20th Birthday today. So yay for me :D The Big 20. (dances) j/k
I'm still up and it's only 5:22am Which is not a good thing, considering Some people will be over today, at *unknown* times :worry: So that might not work out well :S.
My cousin Stevie whom just got married almost a week and a half ago said he would come over today if our mutual cousin Krissy called him and reminded him, however I believe he was wayyyy to plastered to remember anything. And she more then likely forgot as well lol. :P but thats okay it's the thought that counts.
I'm hoping to still be going to school In september :D But Its becoming So expensive.